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What Can Accountability Look Like In Practice?
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I have a very tumultuous relationship with accountability. I find that accountability outside oneself is full of expectations and unknowns. Corinne and I had a convo with some really amazing individuals the other day and one of them mentioned that accountability starts with the self first—and ultimately you can only be sure of it within yourself. I completely agree. I think that if you aren’t accountable with your own self and can’t be raw, vulnerable, and honest about how you hold yourself to boundaries you have set, how can you possibly be accountable to your partners, friends, or communities? 

With all of this in mind, this is a list that I make for myself to stay on my path. It leaves room for error which I appreciate, because there are some times that we may not be 100% present. 

What are you feeling?
How are your feelings influencing your actions? Vice versa? 
What have you eaten today?
Did you create time for solitude today?
Drink more water.
Don’t forget to make tea before bed!
Were you completely honest today?
If not, in what ways and how? Did your dishonesty create a downward or upward spiral?
If yes, in what ways and how? Did your honesty create a downward or upward spiral?
What energies did you welcome in your space today?
Did you practice meditation today—even for just a moment?
How did you cleanse today?
What sounds surrounded you throughout the day?
In conversations, what stood out to you?
What moved you today?
What colors did you see? 

These are the ways I hold myself accountable. I don’t do this everyday. I also don’t write the answers down everyday. Sometimes I have a conversation with myself. There are days I focus only on one question. Other days I may add more. I think that holding myself accountable first allows me to be present with my all who I may interact with and also allows me to practice actively listening to everything around me. I get distracted easily. I also disassociate sometimes especially if I’ve had a busy week. So I like to make sure that I am rested, well fed, and looking and feeling the best that I can.

Community accountability is hard to visualize. There are so many people in our world and we all interact differently and on various frequencies. I try to keep myself open in so many ways because I realize that no matter what frequency someone is on there is always something for me to learn and varying ways for me to connect with others. Lately, I have been practicing not absorbing what doesn’t actively serve me—and I’m not saying all my interactions have to give something to me. I’m saying that in being an active listener, and being someone who can share wisdom and power, I also have to be accountable and really hold the individuals that come to me. Holding someone and helping them move up shouldn’t involve me absorbing and experiencing their struggles. I have the power to see what is happening with folks, use my vision to help others move higher. It’s a hard thing to remember and very challenging for me to practice, but it helps me become a better friend and I see that my friendships have bloomed beautiful flowers as I move forward in this way. Doing this has also helped me envision where I can take the work that I do and want to do and manifest it. 

Corinne and I have been talking about so many things with each other. Places we want to go, business moves we want to make. We’re making these things happen and I know it’s because we believe we can do it. She believes in me and I in her. We also have shared with each other our strengths and weaknesses and in that way we can help to hold each other accountable and see that possibilities are endless for us. We start inward and move outward. When thinking of community accountability I always think about these things first. Here are some questions that come to mind when I think of community accountability—they are questions that I can ask myself and pose to my communities (for me community can be as small as one on one interactions with friends/lovers/family as well as larger communities like folks I live with/work with/create with/identify with):

What is your vision? — yes this is an open ended question.
What do I seek?
What do I need in my relationships?
What do I bring to relationships?
How do I see myself?
How do I want others to address me?
What responses can I give when I feel ostracized?
What are my triggers?
Who/what can I look to when I feel triggered?
What do I need to come out of triggering moments?
What can I do to not feel triggered?
In what ways can I share myself?
How can I communicate what I would like to know about others?
What/where are my strong points?
What/where are my weak points?
What do I need to be vulnerable?
How can I create space for others to be vulnerable?
Who am I?
What am I?
How am I?
Where? This is very open because I like to think about ‘where’ when thinking of maintaining connections.  

Accountability can be a very murky thing to navigate. But I think asking LOTS of questions can make it very tangible. It can also help create boundaries that you can stick with.  

Do you ask questions a lot? If so, what are they? Share with us!

xx, Rahel


I spend a lot of time thinking about intimacy, desire, relationships & accountability within all of the above. I was at Queer Soup Night with a friend a few weeks back when we really delved into these topics. We talked about how so often femmes are having these conversations on our dates, in our bedrooms, on the kitchen floor after a night out — but yet they aren't seen as valuable in our society. These conversations, when we examine the ways in which we support and love one another, are literally vital to our survival. They are activism. They are transforming our communities into stronger and more supportive entities. We are doing the work without even realizing that we are doing the work. 

How do these conversations come up for y'all? What do you want to really examine about the ways in which we love and hold ourselves accountable as queer femmes? And yes, I mean romantic and platonic and communal and familial. Every form of love.

For me, a huge aspect of this is reifying our boundaries. Giving verbal power to our vulnerable needs and desires from people. I recently sent Rahel a text saying, "I'm having an awful mental health day and I really need a friend to talk to. Do you have space for me to come over tonight?" And by space, I meant emotional and physical. When I sent that text I was nervous about it, even though I know that Rahel loves me and is there for me. Putting out that I was in a moment of need felt scary. But when we speak to those intimate and scary truths with our people, that's when we have a chance to grow. That's when we have a chance to feel seen and loved and build upon our connections. 

On the other side of that is also having the ability to say "no" when we have to. And doing so in a loving and caring way. Speaking to our boundaries and saying, "I can't take that on right now, I love you and let's check in with each other this weekend."

Because individual healing, interpersonal care, and collective liberation are all intrinsically bound. The work is not easy. It's a commitment for probably our entire lives. It takes constant and intentional work to be accountable to those we love. And to set the needed boundaries to recieve the same. 

I think it's also important to not treat our friends as placeholders until we find romantic love. That is so often the narrative I see and it hurts. Not only do we become isolated in our romantic loves (and thus expect them to fulfill all of our needs) but we're also shutting out the possibility for having deeper relationships with our friends. Platonic intimacy is so valuable to me. It's a new experience for me, I think because we're told from society to seek finding our "soulmate" instead of simply living life with love in mind with all of our connections. Love on your friends, send them sweet messages, leave them tender gifts, hug them, snuggle with them, take them on platonic dates. 

Rahel and I delve more into this in our episode next week (with our fabulous guests). Until then, leave us comments, message us or email us with your thoughts! We want to hear from you. 

xx, Corinne

Full Blue Blood Moon: Expanding & Retracting
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Rahel's Full Blue Blood Moon Theme

Themes. Heart themes are constantly on my mind now. Thinking on this eclipse as well as the full moon/new moon eclipse back in August, I see that my focus was on setting boundaries. Standing firm in them and making space and being ok with self time. Knowing what my body can take. I accomplished that feat. Coming back to the present, remembering conversation with a close love on being present with my accomplishments and desires, this full moon eclipse I am celebrating my body. My self. I am celebrating how boundary setting is effortless for me now. What a beautiful thing when you can really say no and be fine with it. And to be able to say yes and trust fearlessly. That is where I am. My heart is warm and lovely. 

I am also setting boundaries within myself and deconstructing how my body has become addicted to processed foods. As a dear femme I love from afar said in an insta post last week- being poor and overworked has an effect on our bodies and sometimes it is easy for us to fall into reward eating. 

Last night I made a special meal for myself. One with lots of ginger, miso, seaweed, red beans, kale, and black quinoa. With each bite I will felt the waste being picked apart. Pushed out of my pores. Out of my body. Sitting on the toilet has never been so sweet haha 😆 

Last night I shed tears for those of us who have become wrapped up in the stresses of our work. So much that we forgot for a hot second that we deserve nothing but the best. And we forgot that we can create ways to have the best things. It’s second nature for us to be on that constant hustle — especially as black n brown people; making sure we have the funds we need to stay afloat. But we forget that we have to nurture our bodies. We have to make that part of our hustle. So let’s check on each other more. Meal sharing is an art. It’s a way for us to really take care of each other and nurture one another. I want to see more family dinners this year. I am committing to cooking with close friends and new ones. Corinne and I will be meal prepping on Sundays. This is going to be a way for us to save money and share space and love with each other and go deeper into our friendship. 

My heart themes stretch further than just sharing of meals. My heart truly desires intimacy and closeness now. I spent so much of last year sitting with myself and with my plants in my beautiful space. Now my heart craves time spent with friends, lovers, and friend lovers. I want to play beautiful music with them, hug them, kiss them, laugh with them, and hold them really close. I want to be present and really ask them “How are you?” and be ready to listen to their answers. 

I have been so blessed to have my twin love come visit for several days in the last couple weeks and it was healing for me on so many levels. To recall how I moved in my friendships back home and think of how I’ve grown and how my friendships move here, has been beautiful process. I’ve also cultivated new ways to keep connecting with my love back home. I’m blessed that two femmes in my life gifted me with a new phone so now I can FaceTime everyone all the time. That really makes my heart jump for joy.  Simple luxuries that so many people take for granted are so sacred to me. 

In thinking of heart themes, I created a heart healthy and mind healthy tea blend for myself on this full moon:

Red clover
Passionflower
Skullcap

For relaxation and rejuvenation and a constant reminder that I am abundant and overflowing with blessings on blessings on blessings ✨ 

I truly hope the full moon eclipse has gifted you with joyful energy as well.

Corinne's Full Blue Blood Moon Rambles

This full moon energy started to hit me a few days ago. It might be that I’ve really started to to live on moontime and create intentions about it. Or maybe it’s just that this month’s lunar energy is really powerful with two full moon’s happening in January — making it a blue moon month.

La luna is giving us truth and power today with a total lunar eclipse, that illuminated the sky this morning with a coppery colored blood moon. The last total lunar eclipse was in August, 2017 during a new moon — so I’ve been thinking about the cyclical nature of life. These past six months I’ve been shedding layers faster than a python. With every layer I shed, I feel myself shiver a little bit more until I grow accustomed to the temperature change. You know how if you’ve lived in the South for awhile, 70 degrees starts to feel freezing until you settle around the bonfire? Yeah, like that.

My vulnerability, all of me, is right on the surface of my being. A stranger passing by could just pluck my nerves and bring me to my knees. An ex lover stopping by could simply pick up my heart for free. An open garage sale! Come one, come all. My body, my soul, my being has been up for grabs. Give me your best offer.

But the other morning I woke up and I walked to work and I smiled to myself. I know that seems small, but I smiled to myself and then I teared up because I smiled from a happiness and love I had given to my own self. In my practice of shedding these past six months, I’ve been really *in my feelings* about how society tells us to prioritize romantic relationships and how that has impacted me. I’ve spent most of my time since coming out as queer seeking romantic relationships. And when I’m in one, I give myself over fully to the other person. I lay my heart at their feet and trust them not to stomp on it. However, I’ve never done that for my own self. I’ve never shown up 200% for myself the way I have for past lovers. I’ve never poured my own honey back into my soul — always flowing out for another’s consumption.

This larger lunar cycle from eclipse to eclipse has really been about finding ways to love myself more. And I don’t mean the marketed “self love” you see in capitalist advertisements — I mean the hard shit. The sitting all night in my room with the ugliest parts of myself kind of shit. The finding ways to love myself even when I don’t like myself. I’ve needed to learn that loving someone else can’t be a placeholder for loving myself.

Love will crack you wide open — it’s what you do with that love that has the power to transform lives (yours included). This all relates back to the moon. Full moons are a time for harvest, a time to sow the seeds you have been secretly hiding, a time to brew up some magic. The water in the soil is close to the surface — same as the water in our bodies is right under our skin. Churning up emotions and thoughts and plans that you maybe haven’t yet given the power of affirmation to yet. Now is the time. Everything is ripe and though that also might bring some pain as it’s easier to get bruised, you can also work within this expanse. Sit in it, grow in it, speak out loud to the Universe what you envision for yourself. She’s listening.

The next full blue moon will happen around the end of March, 2018. Until then, I'll be spending time with my inner creative constellations. I'll be lifting the weight that society has placed on me to focus on romantic relationships — and instead I'll be nurturing platonic love, self intimacy & community care. 

Affirmations for this full blue blood moon:
I honor my physical and emotional boundaries. They are valid, as am I.
I have the power to reify my dreams.
I am one with the cosmos.
I can heal the aspects of my heart that have become jaded.
I deserve to feel joy ruminate in my physical being.

Super Moon In Gemini: Looking In The Mirror
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Rahel's Full Moon Reflection:

I've been feeling the energy of the upcoming full moon all week. I've felt unusually exposed. Very raw crab out of their shell. Soft skin out in the open. It's been a lot to get used to but I think this feeling will be sticking around throughout the retrograde. 

I've been putting most of my attention to clearing out heaviness in my life. This includes people, material things, and past traumas/events I've been holding onto. I was blessed to be able to attend Blindseed's Heart Camp in early November. It reminded me of the importance of getting up and out of the city. Deep into nature. I had so much time to reflect and process all that had been going on with me throughout the year. I've been able to really give thanks for the new space I live in and set intentions for myself and my work. I was able to be explicit and direct with the universe, spending time hiking in the woods with a close friend and us laughing and screaming into the crisp air. I appreciate those special times with friends. I want that more. To be my honest self with them. Cry with them. Share my insecurities, rage, and happiness with them. I will do that so much more going forward. At Heart Camp I made commitments to myself and the universe. To invest in my creations and share them more often, to feed my body only the best, and to dream better and more often. 

My favorite part of Heart Camp was the last day's event. Most of us participated in the sound bath. I'd never had one before-or so I thought until I talked with the facilitator afterwards. It was a very psychedelic experience. I saw glowing DNA strands rewriting themselves. After I felt completely light and empty. The heaviness in my solarplexus lifted. I was and still am full of light. I came home with the energy to really work and move with ease. I feel a fluidity I haven't felt in years. Since my teenage years actually. 

I notice a lot of fear coming to the surface with this new raw body of mine so I've been sitting with it and looking to where it comes from. Growing up I had it as well. It came from so many folks questioning my happiness and bliss and outspokenness that I grew fearful of my own light and dimmed it a bit. I'm thankful for friends that I have now who refuse to let me dim my light. It's how I keep myself in check. I decided to take this a step further and talked with a beautiful person Corinne and I have both been blessed to share space with, Odane. They're an herbalist, magical light worker and healer. We held a tea ceremony in my home where they made a special blend for how I've been feeling, what I needed lifted, and what I wanted to manifest. They guided me through meditation and really helped me find the tools I needed to continue these meditations for myself. I found that a lot of what I used to practice I stopped after 2005. So I'm bringing those practices back and have been meditating in the morning and at night before bed. I really check in with myself throughout the day to make sure I'm not holding on to others' emotions and baggage. I'm really loving this new light feeling and am holding on to it tightly. 

I will be celebrating the full moon upstate at Storm King. Reveling in the beauty of my surroundings and sharing love with close friends. I also will be writing out a guide for myself on ensuring that my crafts are sustainable for me. 

I hope that this full moon shows you a side of yourself you're not usually used to and you take full advantage of it and jump into it with love and care  🌝

We hope you'll join us for our Winter Solstice live recording of the podcast with Odane, followed by a beautiful tea ceremony. 

Corinne's Super Moon Reflection:

This weekend, there are a lot of magical things manifesting in the sky. Sunday the moon will turn full while in Gemini — which is my sun sign. I've been feeling super energized this week. I'm usually such a homebody and introvert but I just realized that I made intentional plans every day for the past week with people I love. It was so beautiful and I feel so full of their love and energy right now. It's illuminated to create intentional energy with people in your life. To curate and care for the energy your relationships hold. 

This full moon is also a super moon, meaning la luna is extra close to the Earth and her energy doubles in power. Or at least, I like to think so. My emotions feel bigger. My relationships feel more intense. Insights into my mind are more forthcoming. My release of what's needed feels heavier than usual. 

My mind is always twenty steps ahead of where my present self is. Which can have me feeling rushed and flighty often. That is especially amplified during Mercury retrograde. But I'm actually looking forward to this last retrograde of 2017 — it helps everything come to the surface that I've be avoiding. It helps me realize unhealthy patterns. It helps me communicate what I need to release. 

I don't want to rush through my life. I don't want my propensity to think ahead to get the best of me. I try to communicate with intention to the people I love, but sometimes I fuck up. Sometimes I say things I don't mean or I speak out of haste instead of love. I'm taking time this super moon to sit with myself and really slow down my speed. I want to be more intentional and aware and conscious in the life I'm living. 

I hope this full super moon brings out your twin selves in the most beautiful and creative way. I hope you allow yourself to feel the intensity of the moon in Gemini. Don't be afraid of what your third eye calls you to witness. It might bring you to the brink of what your soul has been craving this past year.

Calming tincture to start off the New Year.

Like I said, my mind is always twenty steps ahead. So I'm already thinking about the New Year. I want to start off 2018 in a calm and reflective state. So I recently made this Chamomile tincture and wanted to share the recipe with y'all. It's perfect to help improve sleep, ease menstrual cramps, relieve headache, and soothe anxiety.

What you'll need:
A glass jar with an airtight lid
1/2 cup of Chamomile flowers
1 cup of 80-100 proof Vodka or Brandy
A cheesecloth or strainer

Take your Chamomile flowers and crush them slightly before you pour the cup of alcohol over them in the glass jar. Seal it with the airtight lid and allow it to sit in a dark, cool space for 4 to 6 weeks. After the 4 to 6 weeks are up, strain the liquid using a cheesecloth or strainer into a small jar or container for easy use. You can consume a full droplet as needed.

Taurus Full Moon: Musings, Abundance & Gratitude 

Tonight the moon is heavy and full with Taurus energy—an Earth sign. Daylight is becoming shorter and Mother Earth is preparing for her annual rest in the Northern hemisphere. Gaia needs abundance before this winter’s hibernation—how can we all gently aid her into this peaceful transition? To ensure she has sweet and empowering dreams. The pains of the capitalist patriarchy have taken such a toll on her (and all of us). So how can we make a commitment to promising her more safety and nourishment next year? When we accept her gifts of nourishment, we can also work to ensure she is not depleted through our consumptions. 

Taurus and the Earth element are both ruled by Venus—a dual power of love, harmony, and embodiment are at the forefront for this full moon. I’m focusing on what I crave, what I need, what I have the energy to give, and the ways in which I can add to others’ journey towards abundance. 

The next full moon in Taurus will be in May, 2018—so give yourself time to be slow and think about this cycle of groundedness. What brings home to your body? How can you focus on your ruby red roots that are always there for you, whether you recognize them or not? What helps you feel embodied: dance, slow movements, a warm cup of tea, meditation, hiking or being in nature? This is a time to set into action what you want to manifest by next Spring. 

While you meditate, I suggest sipping on this tea. I asked a femme friend (I write more about their work below) to create an amazing tea for this full moon. Here is their recipe!

Tea Of Abundance by Ødäne
*** specifically created for this Taurus Full Moon
Ingredients for 3 cups (to 16 oz of Blessed Water):
2 tbsp Thyme
2 tsp Violet
2 tsp Lavender
1 tsp Sage
2 tbsp Rose Petals/Buds (organic)
3 tsp Golden Rod
3 tsp Marshmallow
2 tsp Foxglove
1 Cinnamon Stick

Affirmation: Within my second house // Shukra dances in full bloom // Nymphs sing songs under full moon // Mind, body, soul // By sea, by earth & ether within // Abundance is now // Abundance is won

Drink and chant this affirmation every day for 8 days, starting this morning Friday, November 3. For full effect—visualize your ownership for healing and the completion of any desire.


Life has been moving so quickly for me lately that I’ve hardly had time to sit and give thanks for the guidance I’ve received. But the universe has been listening because I have been receiving an abundance of guidance from so many people in my life: new and old // digital and IRL. Thank you all for your love and patience with me! 🔮 🖤

I recently experienced my first ever tea ceremony with a dear (and new) friend Ødäne (who provided the amazing Taurus Full Moon tea recipe above). To celebrate Samhain, we gathered with fellow craft workers to meditate, release, and drink tea for the body//mind//spirit. Ødäne led us in the most empowering ceremony with the intention to listen to and build our connection with the Spirit and our own guides. As I held onto my cup of tea, I quietly closed my eyes and could feel my late grandmother at my shoulder. Letting me know that I should not give away energy that I do not have. She affirmed for me that it’s okay to focus inwardly. Thank you Ødäne for sharing your gift with the world! You are truly magical. If you would like to host a tea ceremony with Ødäne—which you all definitely should, if you can (it’s life altering)—you can contact them at Craft@WVOCRAFT.COM

Our most recent interviewee Taylor Yates for reading my natal chart and providing me with the most inspiring reiki session. Taylor is truly an amazing healing practitioner. She provides long reaching astrology readings, healing reiki sessions and amazing insights into creativity. All of which we spoke about in our most recent episode, which you should check out if you haven’t yet!

My dear friend Olivia Ahn, thank you for continually giving energy to the world and those around you. I want you to know that you are seen, valued, and held. Olivia has so much knowledge about empathy, love, the moon and energy. I have learned so much from you in our budding friendship and am continually grateful to have your presence in my life.

Rahel, my partner in this growing project. I wouldn’t want to embark on this with anyone else and not only do I appreciate your insights and energy—but I have so much fun creating this podcast with you. It fills me up with so much joy that we are giving space in this weird and wild world for femme energy and conversations. 

Shontay, I want you to know how grateful I am for you continually holding space for me and checking in on me. I’m not sure I yet have the words for how grateful I am for your presence in my life. But I want you to know that I hold your energy so dearly and close to my heart. 

My friend Cameron for continually giving space to femmes in her life. Thank you for processing life with me and teaching me what it means to be truly present in a conversation. I love the way our friendship has grown over the past year. 

Dearest Y, thank you for your presence in my life. Your support. Your affirmations to my process. I hope you know what you mean to me. 

Myself. For being patient with my process. For being gentle with my thoughts. 

Sarah Faith of Visual Magic and Many Moons—though I don't know them personally, their blog has been giving me so much guidance and life. I have been learning so much about the moon phases through their newsletter, books and posts. I highly recommend their work. 

This is by no means a comprehensive list of the people and energies I’m grateful for. Just a few who I felt pulled to write about at the present moment. 

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My Full Moon meditation plans:::

Walk barefoot in the grass. Feel my feet sink into the cold, mushy dirt below me. 

Create a makeshift alter, as I’m currently traveling and in Northampton, MA. 

Pull guidance from The Mother and do a tarot reading.

Drink Ødäne's Taurus Full Moon tea and repeat their amazing affirmation. 

Meditate slowly and with patience for my ever rushing thoughts.

Focus on these questions from Naimonu James:
What does joy look like for me?
How do I cultivate my joy?
Are there block to my joy? If so, what/who are they?
Where is there already joy in my life?


What are you doing for this Full Moon? Resting, writing, spending time in community, nourishing your body with your favorite foods? We want to hear from you! Use the hashtag #FemmesWithPlants to connect with us this week. 

xx, Corinne

New Moon, New Beginnings
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Rahel’s New Moon Reflections & Affirmations

One thing that I love about myself is that I know me so well that no-one can come at me from a place of hate and tell me something that I don’t already know. I love that I am never shaken or confused by hateful or envious intentions of others. I see it and know that they only see my power—and maybe they can really see the magnitude of it, something that I can’t always gaze at. This year has been a shedding of that hatred. A shedding of people/places/things that hold envy at the core. Shedding of all the people and things that hold selfish intentions with their magic/creations/work. A year that really showed me that I have all the power I need inside—and I have it because I have made it a point to surround myself with people who reflect powerful magic back to me. I surround myself with people who share themselves without expectation or false hopes or passive aggressive wishes. The Hierophant has been an overarching theme of my year. Using wisdom, trusting intuition, going inward.

With this in mind, I have been thinking a lot about affirming myself and looking back at my accomplishments this year and what they will continue to bring forth.

I commit to putting my time, money, and creative thoughts into expanding my work.

I commit to saying no when whatever ‘it’ is breaks into my sacred time, my work, my solitude.

I commit to making space to heal. Talking with close friends about my life, who I am, who I was, who I will be.

I commit to being outspoken even when I’m afraid to do so. My fears come from rejection, shame, isolation. If I am rejected, shamed, or isolated I will not allow that to affect my thoughts of self, my worth, or my well being.

I will no longer serve what doesn’t serve me. Service comes in many forms. A smile, an open heart, soft words, time, and space. If I don’t feel connection and feel that my efforts are one-sided, I will let it go.

I commit to spending time to look into myself.

I commit to taking friends/lovers who shake me to the core when expressing how I should be proud of who I am and be loud about it.

I commit to being completely raw with what I need sexually. Unafraid to speak on my desires. I will be open and honest and talk with lovers and friends about how I approach desire and ask for what I need to feel full.  I commit to exploring these desires with myself and sharing them only with people who know how to really hold me.

Ep. 2. Taking The Response To Sexual Violence Further Than A #TweetOfTheDay

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Corinne's New Moon Reflections & Affirmations

This past summer has flashed before my eyes so quickly. But in the small moments, it seemed to be going painstakingly slow. Like I couldn't get through it fast enough to get to the-other-side. What was at the-other-side, I didn't know. I just knew it must be better than the turbulence I was going through. 

I'm on the-other-side now. And I'm remembering that sometimes everything needs to be uprooted for new growth to begin. I wasn't being mindful. I wasn't watering myself for growth. I wasn't listening to my body. And so, this new moon in Libra is monumental for me. The moon always shows up in my life when I need her energy most. Even though you can't physically see the new moon, she is invoking something bigger from us all right now. While she takes a break in the dark to replenish her energy; she is calling on us to live with more intention. To find harmony in our relationships, either that or those relationships aren't right for us. 

The airiness of the sun and moon both being in Libra tonight, for me, is all about clear communication and boundary setting. I haven't been speaking my unconscious truths—not even to myself. In the past I've run from new beginnings. Afraid of the shift. Afraid of the uprooting. 

Right now, I am in existing in my uprooted state. Completely raw. Everything on the surface, not just below as it had been this summer. A stranger walking by me could just pluck one nerve and I would know exactly what nerve and where in my body I had been touched. That means that I cannot speak anything but my truths, even the dark ones. And in that I have found affirmations about what I want to give the world:

I commit to being good to my friends and my community because I want them to have the power and emotional strength to be good to their people and so on and so forth. We can pass along this force of energy to one another through everyday, simple interactions. 

I commit to examining my intentions in the work I do. I commit to following my creativity the way I would if there was no audience, no noise, no emojis, no social media likes. 

I commit to letting my truths (especially the hurt ones) flow from my mouth in a non-selfish way. I commit to speaking my truths with intention for growth (for myself and the person(s) I'm communicating with). 

I commit to remembering the fact that I don't need to prove my worthiness to anyone. 

I commit to not trying to control my future. To letting go of expectations, especially from others.

I commit to holding space for others who have held space for me. I commit to holding space for new people in my life and allowing that source of energy to grow. I commit to holding space in a way that isn't selfish or self serving and doing my best to ensure that the space feels safe for everyone present. I commit to actively listening to what is said in this space and reflecting on those words and continuing to carry them with me. 

I commit to holding everyone in my life (myself included) accountable for what we say and do and how it impacts other human beings existing in the world. 

With love and blessings for this new moon,
Rahel and Corinne